[theqoo] AFTERMATH OF RECEIVING TREATMENT FOR PE****LIA

T/N: for censorship purpose p****lia will be shortened as PD

I never thought I was a PD, but I would stop scrolling when I saw pictures of elementary school girls on SNS or the internet, and when I saw kindergarten or elementary school girls on the street, I would follow them with my eyes without realizing it, and I would think of those kids at home and m*****te, and I would feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself.

So I went to a relatively large hospital, and at first, they did a questionnaire and an EEG test, and the doctor said that they would treat me with both medication and counseling. The picture is an antidepressant prescribed because of the side effects of the injected medication. 

When I talked to him, he said that only a very small number of people come to the hospital for PD, and that it takes a lot of courage to come here. He said that the medication would only help suppress impulses, and that the treatment would be counseling-based.

The doctor seems like a good person, but maybe because it’s a university hospital, it feels a bit like I’m being experimented on? He said if the treatment works well, it could set a good precedent globally and could even be used in research papers.

I think it’s been about three months since I started the treatment, but when I take the medication, I just feel kind of lethargic, and I’m not sure if there’s any progress with the treatment. No matter what woman’s photo I look at, I just don’t feel anything anymore.

As for the doctor, I’m not sure if it’s for academic reasons or financial reasons, but I think they’re really passionate about it, possibly because they see it as an interesting case. But who knows…

1. The fact that he was able to feel shame and go to the hospital is impressive already… I hope the treatment works 

2. I’m impressed that he sought help, he did well 

3. He’s courageous, I hope the treatment works 

4. It’s indeed a mental illness. He needs to get treated. When people fear women their age or older women, it’s often a sign that they feared their own mother when they were younger, or they were bullied by girls their age

5. It’s impressive that he didn’t consider it as mere “taste” and thought he had to receive treatment after examining himself

6. Ah I feel bad for people like him ㅠㅠㅠㅠ I hope he gets betterㅠㅠㅠㅠ

7. I can support people like him 

8. But imagine if nobody tried to seek help to succeed with treatment, the world will never be a better place

9. It’s cool to see him working hard to fix himself. I hope the treatment succeeds!

10. People like him are the ones who should receive luck in life~ I hope he gets the treatment he needs and overcomes it